是时候反省了，趁天还早，趁我的脸还用不着SK II。

眼下我这儿过的日子，还行，挺优秀的。不对，日子不该用优秀来形容，那该怎么说呢。。。

够了！都3点了！不能再磨叽下去了！天都要亮了，我脸上都要长褶儿了！其实我的日子特好形容，一句话就概括了：不是TM人过的！至少不是“我”这个人该过的。

我不是理想主义者，我不是嘴里含着蜜却偏喜欢别人碗里的肉，我也不是怨天尤人专找借口的王八蛋，我只是。。。

我只是压抑了太久，被自己压抑了太久太久，都被压瘪了，就剩张干皮。那些敏感，质朴，原始，灵性，单纯，自由，疯狂，奋不顾身。。。最重要的氢气都漏掉了，现在的我是个飞不起来的汽球。

自己压抑自己？更像是自虐。明明想吃那块肉，偏夹起块苦瓜放进嘴里，还以为健康。明明是野草根，非把自己当郁金香培养。现在好了，野草根枯了，郁金香是塑料的，样子货，没味儿。

come to the GROUND.  我的生活应该是这样的：在北京的某小胡同儿里， 带种的小歌儿唱起来，带沫儿的小酒喝起来。。。那是偶尔。通常情况下，我会在soho自己的design studio里醒来，和爱人腻一会儿，就下楼去替客户design人见人爱的室内效果，不管它是餐馆酒吧还是卖面包的，保管让人眼前一亮，没事儿就往那钻，生意兴隆。version II：。。。醒来。。。腻一会儿，下楼拍明星，拍model, play with the make up, clothes, pose, lighting. 耍足花样。晚上上楼修图，修出意想不到的效果。周末去party go crazy，去熟人的pub 演首areosmith, 再演首james blunt。有了钱去日本欧洲找灵感。

come to the HELL. I'm studying financial management, accounting, marketing, organizational behavior and business law in a famous university. My schoolmates they are the future manager of big company, they will wear expensive suit and Rolex, do nothing but play with MONEY everyday. I don't think I can be one of them, as I don't like to and I don't have the required quality. Actually I am struggling with my study coz i feel i have nothing to do with the things i'm studying. 当经理，当金融师会计师投资顾问？我不是那样的人我也干不好那些事儿。

IN CONCLUSION,  now i gonna climb from the HELL up to the GROUND，in WHATEVER way. 谁也别拦我

And I will celebrate my re-birthday, 26 Feb, in my rest of years.

Thank me.

董子伦